oops, i did it again

no, i didn't drop bridget on her head and take her in for stitches. the babysitter did and then i drove with her on my lap to get stitches. ha! no i didn't do that either. i just realized that we are bringing another little person into the world that we are completely responsible for and i can't believe the nerve of us.

do you know how hilarious it is that i am a parent in the first place? my husband and i talk about this all the time - and if my kids ever do read this down the line, they will realize that we aren't the all-knowing people we have led them to believe we are. look away bridget and ???, i'm just joking!

anyway, as baby #2's arrival is imminent, i am thinking about it even more. who do we think we are? half the time i still feel like i am a kid and we have the nerve to have kids? this concept initially hit home when we told one of michael's best buddies that we were having a baby (baby #1) and his reply was - wow. so you've got it all figured out.

uh, no. and if we'd had this conversation before we decided to have a baby, maybe we'd have waited. we don't have anything figured out. except that we want to have kids and think that we have a good shot of raising happy, hopefully healthy, nice and normal people - which seem to be in short supply these days. we don't have college all saved up for yet or even a house - through some sick, sick twists of fate. do you think that some people do have this figured out? i walk down the street and see other couples with kids and i assume that they know what they're doing but they're probably just like us. winging it. although, there must be some people out there who know exactly what they're doing, it just isn't us. i wonder if we're fooling any of them? that would be something.

i have no idea why i am mentioning this. probably because i am about to be reminded daily - and nightly - for at least 6 months that i haven't done much in the "figuring out" business since miss b was born and i am just realizing it.

oh yeah, my husband's buddy and his wife took our cue and are expecting their first in july. or maybe they did end up figuring it all out and didn't tell us. they'll know the truth in july though!